Rough Weekend...

Well, I've had better weekends and I KNOW Allison has. Chemo won a few battles this week but it will not defeat us. Praise the Lord, the Neulasta shot hasn't been an issue. I mean, nothing, no bone pain, no flu-like symptoms, nothing...so for that we're most grateful. But the complete lack of energy, appetite and desire to get out of bed is a bit much at times.

Stomach cramps, nausea, nosebleeds, heart racing, not able to sleep, then when you finally achieve sleep you can't get out of bed. Other than that, she's doing great! :)

I missed being at church today, there's just something about being with God's children that re-energizes me. Usually Sunday's is just what I need to get me through the rest of the week, so without it, I feel sort of lost as I begin this week's activities.

But there was no lack of love from family and friends. You would expect that over time the cards, emails, Facebooks, meals, etc. would begin to come less frequently. But not my family...not my friends...I'm still overwhelmed and I guess I always will be. I can't wait to give back some of what's been given to us throughout this trial we're journeying through.

This week's appointments are Tuesday and Friday...both are blood tests to make sure her white blood cells aren't dropping too low. Friday is the appointment with Dr. Christman, we should find out then if we're in for 4 treatments or 6...we're praying obviously for 4. If so, then we're half way there!

So, its been a long weekend. I pray for a better week as we move into week 2...last time things got a little better the second week. But I also know that chemo sort of builds on itself...each treatment compounding the previous treatment, so we'll have to wait and see. All I know is that I'm exhausted, so Father, I need you to carry me for a couple of days as I try to help Allison. Give me the strength to be her rock, help me to say the right things, do the right things and care for her in a way that makes her feel protected, safe and loved...in Jesus' name....

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