Preparing...

Yesterday we attended the funeral of Bud Eubanks, the epitome of Christian service who fought for several years against a disease I've grown to hate. Earlier in the week I attended the visitation of a godly coworker whose wife lost her battle as well. Battle...Fight, we hear these words and in the past I've just sort of blown them off. Yeah OK you're "fighting" cancer, but did I really ever stop to think how true this actually is? I don't think so. This disease can be beat, countless others have been able to do it (with God's help I might add). But why do some win these "battles" and others don't? These were godly people. They loved Jesus just like I love Jesus. Everyone wonders the same thing, always have..."why do bad things happen to good people"? Then He tells me, "to bring Glory and Honor to me Chris".

Trials have a way of almost forcing us to turn to the One who can truly help us. People "fight" this "battle" but only God determines victory. And regardless of the outcome, He WILL receive the Honor and Glory that is His in the first place.

Last night Allison and I talked about all that's going on this week. Ever since seeing Dr. Blouin last week we just haven't really talked about "it". But last night I asked her, "so what do you think about Wednesday, what we'll hear?"...she's so strong..."I think they're going to tell me I need chemo and I'm preparing myself to hear that". Secretly I've been preparing to hear that too but I certainly didn't want to bring it up. Our prayer still continues to be that chemo won't be necessary but we're preparing ourselves and God is showing up in His perfect time with grace and strength to handle whatever we hear Wednesday.

On Friday we meet with Dr. Grisell, the radiation oncologist. We know she'll need radiation but we have to talk with Dr. Christman, our medical oncologist first to see if chemo is in our future before we see Dr. Grisell.

So, the "fight" or "battle" continues...this week should bring some clarity to what direction we head next. Father, we love you and praise you for all you're doing in and through our lives. I thank you that you continue to lead us and even carry us at times. Your Word tells us to wait on the Lord, to be strong, take heart and, again, wait on the Lord. Father, we're waiting as patiently as we know how, give us Your Peace. In Jesus' name...